I grew up in church. I don’t remember a time I didn’t believe the story of Jesus. One year at church camp I came to realize my life was full of sin. I needed Christ. I asked Jesus to come into my heart, and I was baptized. My life didn’t really change much because I continued my life of sin and felt the weight of my guilt. I lived my high school and college years with conflict in my heart, not believing God could make use of such a sinner.
After I was married my husband and I scheduled a meeting with the pastor. My husband had many questions about Jesus, salvation and the church. The pastor answered my husband’s questions, and in doing so he made me realize God holds His children in the palm of His hand. He will not let us fall because He loves us so. At that moment it all became clear to me. Even with all my sin He really does love me. He really has forgiven me and will never leave me.
I thought about God’s true love for me, and made a new commitment. To believe in who Jesus is, believe in His promises and follow Him with my whole heart. My life hasn’t been the same since. Al the conflict I felt for so many years was the Holy Spirit holding onto me as I did my best to “jump” from God’s grasp. Allowing Jesus to truly be Lord of my life has taken away those feelings of guilt and shame, replacing them with peace and joy.
Check out my Church: First Baptist Church, Clinton, OK