The image I had of God, as child, was one of rule keeper. I lived a guilt-ridden existence because I wanted to do the right things and felt so inadequate to follow what I thought the rules were.
I ask Jesus to be in charge of my life when I was 9 years old. However, I thought that meant following rules. The rules were so hard that I thought God would understand if I just didn’t follow them until I was older. This attitude of wait until later to follow God’s plan left me feeling empty. I wasn’t sure who I was nor was I happy with the me I knew.
Through a tragedy in my life, I learned another side of God. God knew when he created me the rules I would break and still he choose to love me. By understanding God’s forgiveness and grace, I don’t feel such pressure to follow rules. I get to love my creator, have a relationship with him, to honor him, and know when I mess up, I am forgiven. In the best times and hardest times, He has been my friend and I hope you will know him too.
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