I was raised as a Catholic and feel blessed that my parents raised me to believe in God and Jesus, but I never really felt close to God. I had such a low image of myself and began suffering from depression when I was 16. I remember always saying that I was “fat, dumb, and ugly”. I think this is what led me to my need to feel loved and worthy. I got involved in relationships with men at an early age. I was searching for something; I just didn’t know what it was.
I moved south to make a change and met a lady that told me Jesus loved me. She said that I was a sinner and that I could not do anything to make myself worthy enough for God. But she told me that Jesus died for my sins and He could make me worthy. All I had to do was admit that I was a sinner, believe he died to save me from my sins, and ask Him to save me and be Lord of my life. What a change that made in my life.
I have joy and peace in my life, and even though I sometimes feel down, I am no longer depressed. When I allow Jesus to be the Lord of my life, he leads and guides me – things ALWAYS turn out just right. I don’t know what I would do if I couldn’t turn to him. He is always there for me. I don’t always feel worthy – but I KNOW that I am worthy. And I know that when I die, I will go to heaven for eternity. AMEN!
Check out my Church: Edgewood Baptist Church, Winston-Salem, NC