My life used to be characterized by guilt, fear, anxiety, and depression. I knew that I did bad things and deserved punishment. I was constantly seeking acceptance and approval from other people. I learned that Jesus Christ loved me, no matter what. There is nothing I can do to earn His love or to cause Him to stop loving me. He has taken the punishment for the bad things I have done. I asked God to forgive me. I received His forgiveness and turned away from sin. I asked Him to be in control of my life.
Now I know that God accepts me. I don’t have to be fearful and anxious anymore. I trust Him to take care of me and meet all my needs. I know that when I die I will spend eternity in heaven with Him. God has been especially real to me in the past few years. In 2001 my husband was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s Disease at age 55. Our lives changed dramatically as his condition got progressively worse. He lived in a nursing home for 2 1/2 years before his death at age 61 in April 2007.
My husband’s illness and death have been very difficult. I have prayed, cried, screamed, and asked God “why?” I have been very angry and deeply sad. I have felt overwhelmed and stressed. But I am always aware of God’s love, presence and provision. I sometimes have to be reminded that He is in control and if I rely on Him I can experience peace in the midst of difficult circumstances. God really does take care of us and His grace is sufficient for all of life!
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