I shouldn’t be alive right now. When someone takes more than 40 pills in one night you would think something would happen to them. That night something did happen but it wasn’t death as I had hoped for. I was seventeen years old and I hated my life. I had to prove to everyone that I wasn’t a failure; I could do one thing right. I could kill myself.
I remember taking the pills and waking up the next morning with nothing wrong with me. I couldn’t believe it God had saved my life. I was undeserving and God blessed me beyond measure. The change wasn’t overnight but from then I finally accepted Jesus as my Savior, and accepted God’s grace. I started going back to church and I really wanted to be better but there was so much stuff in my life that constantly brought me down. I tried to do things by my own power instead of God’s.
This past summer I went on a mission trip to Costa Rica, God showed me how to rely on Him. I finally, with the help of God of course, started to get my life under control. I am still learning how to honor God with every aspect of my life. I finally have a purpose in my life and no one can tell me I am doing it wrong. I am not a failure in God’s eyes.
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